King of Condition (not Conditional King)
It is easy to sing "Blessed be your name" on a Sunday morning or at camp when all is rosy and your troubles are long since Friday gone, but it takes grace to mutter in the most teeth clenched matter when the sky falls and makes the roses appear crushed and dead.
Today was like that. Last night we were informed through our wireless bill that we were being charged $250 for roaming since we got to Grand Haven. Previous to our move, we signed on to a plan that freed us from such charges, hence the reason we singed on. Apparently, that plan doesn't exist, but the once we actually were given only eliminated those charges as long as we're in a certain are, which is not the are we live in, but 4 hours east. The Company refuses to remove the charge, thus creating a very frustrating situation for the wife and I. This is were it started. This morning I found out that my bank likes to charge us for dipping into the overdraft. $6 per day we are in it, and $30 for each time we go into it, so we're are short $36 for admitedly our own fault. But it goes on, I called my Canadian bank to find out that when I make a payment with an American cheese's, it's frozen for 30 days. All this so say: AAAARRGGHH!
The whole time this is happening, both last night and this morning. I had this irritating song in my head that kept me sane.
Blessed be your name, when all around me fails, and the world is caving in on me, blessed be your name. It game me tremendous comfort to know that God was there with me. This morning I felt alone in the midst of his love, I still felt alone. I felt like God was allowing this trouble to happen because I was careless. Then I realized something. It hit me hard in prayer.
God is king over conditions, but he's not a conditional king. Get it. You see, God is God over all, and nothing is outside of his realm of control. Yes he allows things to happen, but not as a form of punishment or for reasons of wrath, but he allows things to happen in order to be true to his gift to us: free will. God's love is not bent on my actions or if I take the proper steps, and it is not proportional, directly or indirectly, to the way the world interacts with me. God is separate and distinct from the world, because he is God. The creator is not define by his creation. If God manipulated the world, then yes he would be the reason this "bad stuff" is happening, but God is so violently protecting free will due to his love for us because he is sovereign... I get it. I get that God loves me. He is the King over all conditions, he transcend them all. But, glory to his name, he is not conditional, tallying up score to see if I qualify for bonus blessings.
Roach out.
Today was like that. Last night we were informed through our wireless bill that we were being charged $250 for roaming since we got to Grand Haven. Previous to our move, we signed on to a plan that freed us from such charges, hence the reason we singed on. Apparently, that plan doesn't exist, but the once we actually were given only eliminated those charges as long as we're in a certain are, which is not the are we live in, but 4 hours east. The Company refuses to remove the charge, thus creating a very frustrating situation for the wife and I. This is were it started. This morning I found out that my bank likes to charge us for dipping into the overdraft. $6 per day we are in it, and $30 for each time we go into it, so we're are short $36 for admitedly our own fault. But it goes on, I called my Canadian bank to find out that when I make a payment with an American cheese's, it's frozen for 30 days. All this so say: AAAARRGGHH!
The whole time this is happening, both last night and this morning. I had this irritating song in my head that kept me sane.
Blessed be your name, when all around me fails, and the world is caving in on me, blessed be your name. It game me tremendous comfort to know that God was there with me. This morning I felt alone in the midst of his love, I still felt alone. I felt like God was allowing this trouble to happen because I was careless. Then I realized something. It hit me hard in prayer.
God is king over conditions, but he's not a conditional king. Get it. You see, God is God over all, and nothing is outside of his realm of control. Yes he allows things to happen, but not as a form of punishment or for reasons of wrath, but he allows things to happen in order to be true to his gift to us: free will. God's love is not bent on my actions or if I take the proper steps, and it is not proportional, directly or indirectly, to the way the world interacts with me. God is separate and distinct from the world, because he is God. The creator is not define by his creation. If God manipulated the world, then yes he would be the reason this "bad stuff" is happening, but God is so violently protecting free will due to his love for us because he is sovereign... I get it. I get that God loves me. He is the King over all conditions, he transcend them all. But, glory to his name, he is not conditional, tallying up score to see if I qualify for bonus blessings.
Roach out.
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